Tuesday, October 2, 2012

An Entire Year

An entire year has passed.  How can that be?  I'm getting behind on writing in my journal to Seth as well.  There are so many things I want to write to him.   SO many things I don't want to forget about this precious time in his life and things I want him to know that he did when he was a toddler.  He is so full of curiosity and definitely a farm boy.  He is 16 months old now.  How did that happen?  We are expecting another baby in just six weeks.  How did THAT happen?  Oh my!  That was certainly a surprise.

Seth is all boy, all farm boy!  He loves riding with his dad or his big brothers in the tractor.  In fact, he can say tractor.  He wants to be outside with the puppies, tractors and bah-sue (his name for cows) all the time.  (Some of you may be wondering why he calls cows "bah-sue"-that is what the guys holler at the cows to get them to come to them.)  He says hi, wow, what is it, uh oh, tractor, bah-sue, mamma, dadda, thank you and probably more that we can't quite figure out.

A couple of weeks ago we were sitting down to lunch.  In the middle he folded his hands to remind me to pray (I had forgotten), precious things like this happen all the time.  I would miss them if I didn't stay at home.  I am so thankful that I have a husband who realizes the importance of a stay at home mom.  We have talked about me going back to work eventually and him staying at home with the kids.  Maybe in a year or two.  In reality though, I want to be at home with my babies all the time.  I don't ever really want to go back to work.  I want to be available to them when they need or want me.  I want to go on field trips and be the room mom at school and get to take them lunch and eat with them.  I want to be here when they get off the bus at the end of the day.  I don't want to miss a thing!

Steve is still working at the same job.  We survived his 18 day work stretch during the state fair.  Seth even got sick in the middle of it all and I was one tired mama by the time he was well.

Hopefully I will be able to update more often.  It is amazing how busy I am staying at home.  I probably do more in a day than I did when I was working.  I definitely do more before 8:00 than I did when I worked.  This is the hardest, most rewarding job ever and I LOVE IT!  I just wish my husband could farm full-time and we could see him during the day more often.  We are hopefully only a year or two away from that.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Trust in the Lord with all your heart!

Sometimes these words are very hard to remember.  I am a better person when my husband is home.  He is currently on day 9 of working 18 days straight due to the state fair.  On days he has to work at the fair he doesn't get home until after 8:00.  I hate these days!  We went with him to the fair on Sunday, but it was hot and hard for Seth to nap.  We ended up spending the majority of the afternoon in the nursing mother's room in the 4-H Encampment building. 
I hate it when Steve has to be gone all day, but I am a mess when he has to be gone overnight.  Luckily, he has only been away from home two nights since we have been married.  I know there will be many more nights he will have to be gone due to going to conferences for his work. 

I stress about everything when he is gone instead of trusting that the Lord is going to take care of me while my husband is gone.  I have heard other wives say they like it when their husbands aren't home and I just can't imagine.  I guess for them it is more of an 'I can eat cereal for supper if I want'  than they actually like it that their husbands are gone.  At least I hope it is that way. 

Seth is an absolute bear most evenings.  He is tired and cranky and fights sleep awful.  It is much easier when Steve is home and we can trade off and on carrying the tired baby around. 

I don't think Steve always understands why I need and want him to be at home.  I count down the minutes every day until he gets home, so I get frustrated when he isn't home when I think he should be.  He doesn't understand why I think it is a big deal that he spends an hour talking to someone on the street instead of coming home.  I don't understand why he isn't in a hurry to get home to his wife and children.  I would think after being away all day, he would want to hurry home. 

So, I will try to trust in the Lord and know that he will take care of Seth and me and that Steve will hurry home and know that when he arrives, his wife and children will be happy and excited when he pulls in the drive.

On a brighter note, here are some pics of our little Seth.  He is getting so big!  My dear friend, Erin, came and took these pictures of Seth last Friday.  She is a senior at K-State and was one of my first students at St. Paul's.  She took Steve and my engagement pictures and was a bridesmaid in our wedding.  If you want to see more of her pictures, go to facebook and like EO Photos.

Seth loves the walker!

Seth is wearing Steve's hat from when he was a baby.  Phyllis kept some of Steve's clothes and gave them to me before she died.  I think we will have him wear it to Gabe's ballgame Friday night.

I hope you all have a fantastic day and remember to trust in the Lord!

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Living the life God intends

Welcome to my blog!  I am at the beginning of my tenure as a stay at home wife and mother.  I love being at home with my three month old son, Seth and also watching my dear friend's little girl, Chloe.  Seth and Chloe are exactly six months apart, so life can get interesting around here!
Before Steve and I were married I did a Bible Study on being a Proverbs 31 woman.  I was really convicted by the message each day in the study.  I am far from being the wife and mother God intends for me to be, but hopefully each day I can move closer to seeing him in the mirror each morning as I get ready for the day and even more hopeful that I can see his reflection every night when getting ready for bed. 
I am hoping that by being at home will help in creating a home that is a blessing to those who live here, I can strengthen my relationship with my husband, children, and most importantly, with God.  I want our home to be a place of security and refuge for the people who live here, where God's guidance for our lives rules. 
Come along with me on this journey as I share funny stories, pictures, and hopefully bless someone each day.